Something More...

It's amazing how a simple inspiration can lead me to great imaginations and realiztaions...

For the past few weeks I've been having peer pressure...
Being in a huge university made me feel inferior..
It made me change to someone I am not..
I've been trying to be 'different' but i tried with the wrong solution...

I thought making myself 'pretty' will make me different..
SO i became a girly gurl. I've applied make up recently,
I've been more concious with the way i dress and act,
Vanity has struck me for these past weeks..

I've been trying 'Too Hard'...

Everyday i noticed that this isnt me...
I talked differently recently and i've become moody.
I've had a bad temper and I'm very impolite now...
I'm not the sweet person i once knew i was...

I changed for the worst, jsut because i was trying 'Too Hard'

It's time to realize that there is more to life...
I just have to dig deeper and soon i'll discover a treasure within...
I am already pretty and different, i don't have to try 'too hard' anymore..
"Yabang" as you say it... but i know i'm pretty and different,

Coz God made me perfectly the way I am

I don't have to focus on my physical appearance anymore,
but rather focus with what's deep within...
There's a man for me out there i know,
I don't have to try 'too hard', coz he's the one who'll look for me...

I am a princess, not a prince...:)

It's tough being in an environment that makes me feel little,
but who cares about what others think?
I am me, and i love myself, because God loves me...:)
What more could i ask?

Looks? ATtention? Popularity? Wealth?
*sigh* Who needs them?
When i've got God in my heart..
What more could i ask?

Nothing...ü

Missin'

I really really miss drawing... Its been awhile since i last drew and i feel uber bad...

I miss imagining concepts..
I miss using my imagination to its wildest points...
I miss creating thin and thick strokes...
I miss erasing the smallest mistakes...
I miss coloring in the computer...
I miss smiling at my finished arts...
I miss uploading on DeviantArt...
I miss my works....
I miss my art..
I just miss it..

-Sigh-

Its really hard to balance my passion with my studies..

College isn't as easy as i thought,
College is about using my intellectual side to the max!
College is about passing and failing!
College is about studying in details!
College is about researching!
College is about standing up, once fallen!
College is about having a goal!
College is about learning!
College is reality! College is tough!
COme to think of it..c0llege is practically just the same as drawing..
Though this time I'm not facing fantasy no more, but rather reality..
It's tough, but when i first drew, it was tough as well...
but then as time went by and as i kept on pursuing to improve...
I began to have a passion on drawing and i enjoyed it changed me...
I believe c0llege is als0 like that..
AT first its tough...it's very tough..
But as time passes by and as i improve...
I will enjoy it and start to gain passion into having high grades...
C0llege is a huge responsibility, and i shouldn't be afraid of it...
C0z God is much more bigger than c0llege...

I can do this, with God by my side? Nothing is impossible...
It might be tough, but God is there to be with me...
SO what shall i fear? When God is so near!...ü

-SecretMilkShake-