I Am Blind

I woke up today thinking about what tomorrow may bring, realizing that I cannot get a glimpse of my tomorrows road. Pondering about my future, I feel like I have no future at all. Yes I have skills, I have the drive, I have the knowledge to have a bright future, but then, who I am to say that I'd be successful in everything that I plan to do? I say I can do it. I know I can do it with what I have; but how sure am I?

I'm blind.

I can make plans, but I am blind. I cannot see my future, I don't know what it has for me. Today I'm happy, tomorrow I'm not. Today they love me, tomorrow they don't. Today they are created, tomorrow they're destroyed. We cannot hold what our tomorrow may bring, it's a risk sleeping every night, for you'll never know what tomorrow will bring.

Sounds lonely ain't it? Sounds sad, hopeless, dark and tiring. . It's because of the blindness. I plan tomorrows day, and when tomorrow comes, none of what I've planned pushes through. I feel like a failure, I feel like I have no future. Exaggerated it is, but that's where it usually ends.

Being blind in this world, will lead us to a never ending maze of confusion and disappointments.

You try to please everyone to feel that worth you seek and when disappointments attack you, you have no where to go but stay down where you are and let others stomp and trip over you. You're blind, they're blind. It's a lonely thought. Reality hits you right when you understand that yes, I am blind.

I am blind. And boy am I glad that I am. :)

Being blind is not lonely, dark, hopeless as it seems. Yes it does sound like those, but that's reality, that's how it really is, but the beauty of that, is we have a Guide. We have a Guide who blinds us for us to not see what we cannot comprehend. A Guide that holds our hands and never lets it go no matter what. A Guide who stays with us and protects us from those who stomp on us once we fall down. A Guide who chose to watch what's ahead of us despite the pain and the evil it presents just to bring us in our destination, our future in it's full potential. Being blind about our future is not a danger or a problem, rather it is an opportunity to trust our Guide and let Him protect us from all that is not for us.

No body said it was an easy road to walk in blindness, it takes a whole bucket of trust, hope and faith. Walking in blindness, holding onto The Guide, brings us to our destination with a contentment in our heart that says, "I've done it. . I've hold on to my Guide till the end, now, I can see the future He has made just for me."

You think being blind is a problem? Think again.

If The Guide allowed you to walk on this earth with the vision you desire to have, who are you to say that you'd grasp to live what you see? The Guide does everything for you, He protects you, He shields you, He fights for you, He leads you. All you've got to do is to hold onto Him; to wake up every morning thanking Him and allowing Him to guide you in every step you make today towards tomorrows future. :)

"I can see, and that is why I can be happy, in what you call the dark, but which to me is golden. I can see a God-made world, not a manmade world." Helen Keller

http://www.changingthepresent.org/blindness_and_vision/quotes

For the mean time, listen to the song entitled "Someone Worth Dying For".

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When You Love Him

We live in a society where the bad is the new good.

Everywhere temptation is following you and embracing you with its sweet lies. Yes, temptation can be fought, but with this amount of temptation? It's tough to survive with only your mind. Oh by the way, your thoughts can also be a threat.

When I stepped out of the teen life, i was seriously afraid of the next stage of life. I wonder most of the time, "How can I survive the filth this world is giving?" Every temptation is everywhere, gluttony, sloth, pride. envy, anger and the biggest one of all, lust. How in the world am I to keep my heart pure if its everywhere?? You see it on TV, on the billboards, on the advertisements, toys, food, etc. it's everywhere I tell you, and the sad thing about it is, most people don't even recognize it and they are engulfed right into it.

So many young women I've seen who are pregnant and studying at the same time. They see those marriage surprises as toys and games. The gifts of marriage is losing it's importance and essence, it brings deep sorrow in my heart; they were supposed to enjoy their teen life as women, and now, they end up taking care of a child alone with the pressure of college. It's sad. And I'm not here to talk about that.

My point is, as the Bible says, the world is becoming more evil. You try to stop evil by your own will and your own intelligence or gut feeling, next thing you know you're ensnared in the evil's trap. You tried, you failed, it seems like hope has abandoned you. You have the heart to stop it, you really do, you want to pursue goodness and purity, but when you face your temptation, it's as if you lost all the wisdom and the will that you've got. So how exactly do we stop this? How exactly can we get out of this vicious cycle we're in? How?

The answer is. You can't. We can't. In our own will and intelligence and passion? No. We can't stop it. It's too huge. The world is too dark for it's own good for us to erase it. We're drowning in the sea of evil and we cannot save ourselves. So... when we can't save ourselves. . what happens? Yes. . Someone else saves us. :)

There is hope.

Love your God with all your heart, soul, and mind. Am I sounding too religious? I'm sorry but you're wrong. I'm saying this because of my love for my God. It's not about the religion, it's about the relationship. What better way to stop something vicious, with stopping it for someone you love? Humans will always be humans. You stop something for another human being, next thing you know, you're both in the vicious cycle! But with God. . God is perfect. You stop something vicious for Him, He will help you and He will never fail you. :)

I've been in a vicious cycle myself. Just like you, i hide it. But you know, even when I'm hiding it in my heart? God sees my heart when no other human being can. I tried to stop this vicious cycle i was in because of fear. I was scared of discrimination, of rejection, of disapproval, or mistrust, of judgement. I was scared. I even feared that God would abandon me. . . But i was wrong. . He never left me. Yeah cheesy, but I'm dead serious. He never left me.

I don't know how to stop my vicious cycle anymore. Until to the point that i wanted to give up on myself. But God didn't.

I prayed to Him every single day. Asking for His forgiveness. Honestly, i felt like He doesn't hear me; but i never stopped praying. My vicious cycle kept going, even when i was praying; Until yesterday. . .I was pondering about what can be done, because Im tired of this, then suddenly, it just sprung up in my head. "Shiriel, you love God don't you?" that changed a lot in my heart.

Yes I love God. I really really do, and so does He. . He loved me first and His love is unconditional. I've been in love with a human being, and i know how it feels to do everything that you can to make that person you love happy. I know how it feels when you hurt him, i know how it feels when you stop the things that you do that hurt him because you love him. That's it, that's the answer.

For me to get out of this vicious cycle I am in and you are in? Is to love God. . to be in love with Him. God is a Holy God. No one can stand in His presence when you have sin in your heart, and that is why there is Jesus, there is forgiveness and that is how we can stand in His presence. So the next time that vicious cycle starts again? Think about God, ask yourself, "Will this make Him happy or not? I know forgiveness is there. . but because I love Him, I don't want to hurt Him."

Be in love with God and you'll definitely survive the evil and filth of this world. Add to that, you'll be one of those little lights that would show hope. <3

When People Care

When people care, you just can't help but be inspired.

It touches the inner core of your heart; especially when it's least expected? Yeah, it touches the heart like no other. :)

A simple message, or a simple "how are you, I'm here for you," does a lot of wonders. I actually forgot about the power of these words, "How are you?" or "Are you okay?" and "I'm here for you." Those are such simple basic words, but when said at the lowest, loneliest or discouraged point of a person, it creates such a wonderful impact in their hearts and lives. Sometimes even in their whole future.

Two people reminded me of my vision and my aim in my works. They simply asked how I was in a very low point of my artistic life and boy, did they touch something really deep. It's like the shiny vision of mine that sunk in the mud of discouragements and failures were dug out with their simple words and act of care. They did nothing but send me an e-mail and my writing went back as well as my vibe to stand up and enjoy art.

There are so many miracles in this life and one of them is encouraging a certain individual in the most perfect time.

It's as if God whispered in their ears how one person is so down, and they responded immediately despite their busy schedule. :)

So, if somebody pops up in your head, you know, someone you don't think of daily, they maybe an old friend, an acquaintance, your boss, your mother or father, or anyone, why not drop them a call of even an e-mail. A simple "How are you?" can do wonders. Believe me, it's true. The fact that I am writing again is a sure clear proof that it works in the most amazing ways. :)

OH! and also, you can add some encouragement, like how you remember what good they've done to you! Believe me, it might gather up some joyful tears. :) Knowing that you've done good to somebody at your lowest point, can create a full degree turn in their hearts and perspective. :)

The power of encouragement. Live it. Grab it. Share it. You'll touch lives like no other in a simple but grandeur way. <3